Messy & Meaningful

I’m Angry

September 11th, 2025

God called us to love others as He loved us. His image bearers. Today, I’m struggling to find that love. Im struggling to find empathy for others who think this world is on the right track, that justice has been served. Im so mad at people I don’t even know. Im also broken for others that I don’t know. I feel the weight of the pain that I KNOW they are feeling. I feel the loss. I feel the sadness of seeing just how far we’ve gotten. But God knew it would be this way. In fact, there’s an entire book written about how desolate and cold this world will become and how we as the body of believers are supposed to be the light in that darkness to share the good news and gospel of our coming Lord. Why do I feel like I don’t want to share it? Not because I have doubts about my beliefs but because I feel like so many are undeserving of His grace. I don’t want these hateful, murderous people to know Jesus loves them. But as I sit and wallow in my flesh, I am reminded that Jesus knew. He knew he was going to be put to death in the most horrific way, yet He still spoke love and light. HE SAID FATHER FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO. In so many ways, I am reminded that I am not worthy of His grace and love either, He graciously has given it because He is love.

Man what I would give to have a heart like Jesus today. To know what waited for me in the distance and still want to bring them to my heart. I pray today for a heart like Jesus. For eyes like Jesus to find the good in a world that makes it so incredibly hard.

Today I’m praying for peace in your heart and mine. I pray that if you’ve never experienced Gods perfect grace, you do today. Jesus is coming back and I believe we’re in the season. Keep oil in your lamps and be ready.

love always.
The tension between wanting to be enough, and knowing I already am

August 28th, 2025

Tell me that title didn’t just catch you…so let’s jump in.

Did you know over 70% of women struggle with self image and/or self worth? Did you know that most of those women seem to “have it altogether” on the outside so you’d never know? We live in culture that is constantly on to the next best thing, the newest trend. We live in a time now where people are even more comfortable on social media saying things about your character, or your image, knowing good and well they would never say it to your person.

Most of the time we don’t realize just how much of our feeling of self worth is totally reliant on what others think about us. I am so guilty of this myself, so I often need to remind myself of who the Creator of the Universe says I am.

He says I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am chosen, even before the world became, and I am His beloved, and I am HIS.

Psalm 139:13-14 “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”

Isaiah 43:1 “But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
    he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.

Romans 9:25 “As indeed he says in Hosea,

“Those who were not my people I will call ‘my people,’
    and her who was not beloved I will call ‘beloved.’”

When I’m drowning in the self pity of not feeling good enough; a good enough mom, good enough wife, pretty enough, funny enough, nice enough, perky enough, quiet enough, all of the ENOUGHS, I can’t help but sit back and think, that the same God who created the most intricate beings, the most beautiful mountain tops, breath taking waterfalls, every species of flower and animal, thought this world needed a me. Just as He designed me. What a God.

I’m Angry

The tension between wanting to be enough, and knowing I already am